Insomnia

I haven't been able to sleep lately. It's pretty much been that I've only slept between 4 and 5 hours per night at most. And those 4 or 5 hours consist of horrendous dreams.

Not like the usual nightmares where monsters come and attack, or strangers chase you around the woods. Instead the dreams include people I know really well.

I end up tossing and turning and not having restful sleep because the people that are in my dreams are people from my past that I either feel like I've had a negative impact on and feel guilty about the presence I've been in their life, or they are people that have abandoned me or abandoned people that I love, whether that's a divorce of a friend or just an unspoken abandonment.

I want to sleep again, and the only decently restful sleep I've had in the last couple weeks was last night, after spending the weekend showing junior highers the beauty of creation and being completely exhausted and in pain.

"Lord grant me peace."